The clock that's ticking away.

Dorisa — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 10:18:17 +0000

Moved. Bye.

If you know I’m talking about you,

Dorisa — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 11:27:03 +0000

Some people are quite disappointing. Like you don’t expect them to actually say something bad about you or your friends but actually they did. I’m speaking without evidence though. But , you shouldn’t name people when you don’t like to be named. Ok i actually didn’t really apply that to myself but if you did something that is so unforgivable then that’s a diff case. However , if someone name you though you deserved it , that someone deserve to be named after all. I know it’s irony. There are always two sides to see things. But i don’t see why others don’t look at both side . And side those who they only listened to? And like you call yourself mature but you’re acting like a scene kid. I mean what’s wrong with you people? It’s a good thing to stand up for your friends, but ain’t you mature enough to stand up for what is right instead of the wrong just because majority is siding the wrong side? I strongly believe that one day , your true friends will realise that they’re wrong and immatured and they will come back to you. And well if they don’t, they ain’t really call friends right?

Not everyone is perfect. & sometimes people tend to get blinded by the lies. But well if you all understand us more , and looked at both point of views , many quarrells and fights would have reduced. It’s because you all thinks that you’re right when obviously you’re in the wrong. Like come on, all you want is face. Everybody will think that they’re matured. But we shouldn’t really judge it ourselves. ‘Cuz things we do , we always think it’s right & matured. But in other’s eyes , we’re childish to the max. What i really want to emphaise it that never to judge a book by its cover and never to comment about others action too OVERLY, when you don’t even know what’s the truth and meaning behind those action made.

Just one last dance

Dorisa — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 12:29:15 +0000

When i let you go, waiting for you to say smth, it certainly
hurts more than you can ever imagine.

It’s a relief and it’s also a pain.
To have you walked away , not knowing you’ll be back.

As long as letting you go can make me happier than
to being with you , it’s fine. And so long you’re happy ,
i am too (:

Free

Dorisa — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 06:32:07 +0000

After you cried, you feel a new feeling.
And that’s called free.

I should start my new year by
quitting smoking and getting drunk.

And of cuz, study hard and hurry get out of school.
Just another year..

Silly

Dorisa — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 08:08:01 +0000

I’ve been holding on way too long.
I let things go way too deep.

When i tried to trust, you never see the effort behind.
When i tried to see your smile, i did everything i could.
When i tried to hold on to you, Im the one who
gives up my pride , just so you’ll be by my side.
When i tried to control my emotions , you are there
to make it worse.
When i tried to be there for you, it ends up
me needing you but you were never there.

This is me trying too hard.
Won’t learn her lesson till she is hurt badly,
and fall hard on the ground, never again will have
the courage to pick herself up again.

Till then, she promised she will never love again.

Upset

Dorisa — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 17:08:26 +0000

When im with you, my life’s like a rollercoaster.
You bring me up and you bring me down.
I don’t know when will i ever get sick of this.
And i’m definitely not sure whether this is a good or bad thing.

Sometimes, i feel like i know you but when i turn around I’m not sure anymore.
You changes like the weather.
And you probably didn’t know how weather changes me.

Because i love you, i gave up many things.
Because i want you, i don’t care.
Because i believe in you , i can’t see myself anymore.
Because of you, that’s why i love.

Breakdowns

Dorisa — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 17:32:31 +0000

I’m feeling kind of emotional. I don’t know where i can vent my anger and saddness on
w/o getting myself drunk.

This blog is getting more and more personal.
But who gives a fuck.

And still deep down you must know i still care.
And despite everything you’ve done and lied, i still miss you.
What the fuck is going on with this world.
Everyday i feel like im acting in a drama.
Can’t get a grip on reality.

Regrets sometimes becomes part of my life.
And sometimes , hatrad kicks in.
I just can’t get those words out of my mouth.

PS/ I still miss and cares for you.

Fool

Dorisa — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 08:47:09 +0000

Have you ever been in love when you simply
don’t care about anything and everything?
No matter how bad that guy treats you,
how ugly he is and when his flaws is a total turn off,
silly girls like you just wanna be with him.
You can not want his roses , his looks , his figure but
you just want his heart, his love. This is call love.
And i’ve been that kind of girl.
I am now , and probably forever i will be one.

Our love has been a drama from day 1.
Or maybe we shouldn’t call it as our love.
Love is such a wrong word for us.
You never gave me anything but i gave you .
My time, my soul & part of my heart.
I’m fucking serious with you but you doesn’t seems to.
And even when people told me i could find someone better,
you are still the one in my mind.

I had to leave first before
you can hurt me. I’m selfish .
But you’re one too. Just keeping me cuz you don’t
wanna be alone. I’ve stayed for you because you asked.
I’m there for you because you asked.
Have you realise , what you want me to do i’m there for you. I couldn’t remember
you not talking about yourself , where is the me?
I put up with your emotional breakdowns.
But now , you can’t even put up with mine.
You ain’t even holding me back when i said i
was leaving. You did nothing up till now.

Well again, this is hurt. Gotta move on girl.